“How we, spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” ~Annie Dillard, The Writing Life
I think about this quote all. the. time.
It makes sense to me in so many contexts.
I share it with my students when emphasizing that what we are exploring in class are not just skills you learn and then put into your back pocket only to whip out when needed. What we are learning and exploring in class is a practice– And we can only ever grow and improve as artists by being in practice, always. “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” If I spend my day (or part thereof) in practice, I am spending my life as an artist. Becoming (an artist, a teacher, a human being) is a practice.
I also think about these words in the context of my lil’ procrastination “problem”—I have a tendency when I get overwhelmed by work or intimated by the scope of the project in front of me at any given moment (the overdue book chapters, the rewrites of my show opening in less than a month… you catch my drift…) to go into a bit of a freeze, or maybe “stupor” is a better description- I end up just kind of messing around. Maybe I’ll scroll social media, putz around my office or house—I will not do anything in particular except feel anxious for not doing what needs to be done and then I always feel bad about it. So, something I’ve started doing is, when I catch myself in one of my stupors—I stop and repeat to myself; “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives”—and while it doesn’t always get me back on back on track as far as the project I should be working on– it at least it redirects me to do whatever I am doing with intention– snapping me out of the procrastination spiral of avoidance and guilt. Do I really want scrolling social media to be something that I spend my life doing? Nope. So, reminding myself that how I spend my days is how I spend my life encourages me to think twice about picking up my phone for the 100th time that day and to pick up a book instead. Or if that is too much effort to sit in my backyard examining the first sign of spring popping up in my garden or to get up from my desk and take a lap around campus. These are all things that I would much rather spend my life doing- and breaking the procrastination stupor is the first step in getting back to my practice – the writing, the rehearsing, the art-making- I get to choose, and this is how I spend my life.